Mood Swing is Killing Me

          Since my boyfriend went to Japan looking for a job, I began to feel insecure and I always cry every night.
     Well, at first I didn't know the cause of this severe pissed emotion that I'm having. ^^


Here are some honest feelings that I was having, since 2-3 months of my pregnancy: 

• A heavy burden to people 
• Denials
• I was being cheated (I don't know why I felt that way.. o_O'')
• Always jealous in some ways
• Get easily irritated
• Mad
• Feel degraded
• Hopeless and helpless
• Thinking that someday I would be a martyr to my husband.
• I'm the cause of stress to my family
• uhhhgg.. . 

   Yes, we always chat online especially on  .

But I wasn't contented just that because I want him to be 
at my side. Of course we women, that a man should be at by our side because we need them even though we punch them anywhere without a reason. 

But I would totally understand that, but it's like my hormones are getting pumped, like a kid who is having a temper tantrum... . =_=
But even though I'm having mood swings I still love my boyfriend and I know he loves me too.. .


T_T But I have to suffer a bit more because maybe he couldn't come home at our country because maybe of some reason.. .*sighs* no worries though , because it's just my hormones.. 

HUWAA!!! I totally miss him.. .